LUNA WHISPERS: CHAPTER 24

 

ACE POV

MATURE SCENE AHEAD

It's been a few days since Freya has been back. Things haven't been quite the same and I'm guessing it's because of the child. Everytime I would try to talk about it. Freya would just deflect or usually use intercourse as a way to avoid every conversation. I thought that was what she needed, what would make her happy but I'm beginning to see that it's a way for her to avoid the situation. She's trying to fake it for me, that nothing is actually wrong with her, but I know her too well to know that she's not fully healed yet. I never expected her to be. But I just wish she would share her burdens with me.

When we weren't sleeping with each other, she was keeping herself busy with tending the gardens, practicing with Yuri, watching the food distributions. Basically everything she could lay her hand on. Then at night, instead of talking to me, she would rather sleep with me and afterwards go to sleep and that was it, no conversations. Just blank. I would catch her sobbing at night but she didn't know. In the morning, she would smile like nothing ever happened. I was beginning to really worry.

"Goodmorning." I heard her voice again. She was smiling but the bags under her eyes were evident. She spent the whole night crying again.

"Goodmorning." I said back. She was about to step out when I called out to her.

"Where are you going to this time?" I said and she turned to me still smiling.

"To tend to the gardens of course." She said.

"The cycle repeats then." I whispered under my breath.

"What was that?" She asked.

"I said the cycle repeats." I responded to her. She stared at me for a few seconds. That was just it, silence and then she left. This is how it always was. She never talks. I would prefer it if she shouted at me, argued with me but it was always nothing all the time. It scared me.

I was training with Darren, I needed to blow off some steam and relax my brain for a while. 

"It feels like you have a lot to get out of your mind." Darren said.

"I'm worried about Freya." I said 

"We all are." He said. I looked at him and sighed.

"She isn't acting like herself." I said 

"That much is obvious." He said 

"I just want her to talk to me." I said sounding desperate. Darren placed his hand on my shoulder.

"She just needs time. That's all." He said.

"I'm worried that the more time I give her. The more she goes down into the deep hole she's created for herself.

"Ace, I don't know what specific advice you need me to give. But if I've learnt anything is that time heals all wounds, but also maybe you should stop indulging her. Make it clear that you want to talk but also be delicate about it. Let her know that you want to heal with her. Do you understand?" He said

"Are you sure you haven't been married. Maybe you didn't invite me." I said and we both laughed.

"Shut up." He said to me and when our chuckles died down, I turned to him and hugged him.

"Thank you Darren." I said.

"I can't count how many times you've told me that." He said. 

"And I will continue to say it as much as I can." I said to him. We stayed like that for a while until I left for my room.

FREYA POV

I was with Isabelle tending to the garden but my mind wasn't really in it. It was far away, like it was these few days. Isabelle has been keeping her distance from me. Maybe afraid that I might explode one day and maybe she was right because if they weren't around me I might actually harm myself. If I was left alone for one minute I was afraid of what I might do. I thought it would all be over once I was back home. But I was wrong, it wasn't over. I kept seeing blood everywhere. I kept seeing Kye's face everywhere.

"Freya." I heard Isabelle say but it sounded far away.

"Freya." it was more anxious this time.

"Freya, stop!" I heard her say as she pulled my hands away form the roses. Blood was dripping down from it. Some pieces of thorns inside them.

"Let me help you clean them." She said.

"No." I said abruptly.

"Are you sure, you don't need my help." She said worried but I screamed at her.

"I said I don't need your help!" I glared at her. She stepped back and walked away from me. I have never spoken to Isabelle like that before. What was wrong with me. I ran towards a river bank near the pack and I put my hand in there. The blood washing away.

As I looked at it, it reminded me of the blood I saw on the floor. The pain I felt when my baby died. I felt everything. I closed my eyes and my breathing became hard. Tears threatening to kill me. My sobs became louder. Then I felt a hand touch my shoulder. I turned around and I saw Ralia.

"Freya" she said and then I broke down. I couldn't stop the tears. She hugged me and I sobbed loudly into her arms. 

"Shh, it's alright." She said. 

"It's going to be okay, everything is going to be okay." She said and I just kept crying.

She took me to her room and I sat there as my tears died down. She came in with some water and she sat down next to me.

"Do you feel better?" She said as I drank the water.

"A little bit." I said. We stayed in silence until I decided to talk.

"Thank you. I should be going." I said but she held my hand.

"Or you could stay and we could talk?" She said.

"I know you're going through so much and I just want to be there for you as a friend. If you would accept me of course." She said and smiled and then I nodded, some tears threatening to spill out.

"It's all just too much Ralia. I can't take the pain anymore and it's affecting my relationship because I can't even talk to Ace about it. I've been avoiding it for so long. Sometimes when I look at him, I just feel like its all my fault. Like maybe if I had listened to him and stayed none of this would have happened." I said.

"No, don't think like that. Don't think that way. None of what happened is your fault. None of this is your fault. You did what you did for your pack, for your people." She said.

"But at what cost." I said and she cut me short.

"It is not your fault that Kye is a devil, that is all on him and not on you. You are the bravest person I've ever known Freya. You are strong and you will get through this. But to do that you have to face your demons. You have to talk to Ace. That is the first step to recovery." She said.

"It's easier said than done." I said.

"When have people ever gone for the easy path to something." She said.

"Never." I said.

"Trust yourself Freya. You can do it."

"Thank you Ralia." I said to her, we both hugged each other and I left.

I went to the room to talk to Ace. He was sitting there. The wound was already healing but slowly. I closed the door and he turned to look at me and then looked away. Like he was already used to my routine. I really saw how the whole thing was affecting him. I didn't consider how much he was hurting as well.

"Well, what are you waiting for?" He said.

"What?" I said

"Are you here to sleep with me again? Well let's get it over with so you can avoid me again. So you can pretend I'm not here and ignore me all over again." He said. I started to cry and he turned to look at me, his eyes softening.

"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I should have considered you, that you were hurting as well." I said. He held me and cut me off.

"It's fine. I'm sorry for saying that." He said. 

"You weren't wrong though. That's all I've been doing, avoiding my problems by sleeping with you and that was wrong. I should be able to talk to you but." I said. and then I hesitated.

"But what?" He said. 

"Whenever I looked at you. I just felt like it was my fault that it happened and I couldn't just tell you about it." I said.

"It's not your fault Freya and I've never felt like it was. All I wanted was for you to just talk to me. I would have reassured you." He said

"I know. I see it everywhere Ace. The blood. I see it everywhere." I said crying. Ace hugged me tightly.

"We'll heal together. We'll both heal together okay. I'm always here for you Freya. I love you so much." He said looking at me with so much love.

"I love you too and I promise to always share with you, all of my problems, I'll try not to be cold anymore." I said and he kissed my forehead. Then he kissed my lips tenderly and I returned the kiss just as tenderly as he did. My hands reached for his shirt but he stopped me.

"Are you sure?" He said. I knew why he was asking. He didn't want to me to fall into the same pattern.

"I promise, it's not the same." I said and he kissed me, I pulled off his shirt and I pushed him on the bed.

"Look who's being authoritative." He said.

"I didn't ask you to speak." I said.

"I'm sorry, my lady." He said and I kissed him again. He wanted to touch me but I pinned his hand to the bed.

"You don't get to touch me yet." I said teasingly.

"You do know that if I wanted to flip you over, I would have right?" He said.

"But you won't because you like it when I'm in control." I said.

"That's quite right." He said and I kissed him once more. 

"You can touch me now." I whispered. In one swift motion he tore my clothes off of my body and pressed his lips against mine.

"At this rate I won't have any clothes because of you." I whispered.

"That's even better." He said and I laughed. He kissed me once. His lips spreading to every part of my body.

"Can I be on top?" I asked.

"You can do whatever you want." He said.

"That's dangerous" I said. He flipped us over and I sank into him. Letting out a moan in the process.

"You feel so good." He moaned. He sat up and I moved against him, as well as he did.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too." He said placing his forehead on mine and that's all we did all night, reaffirming our love for each other. 

It was early in the morning, the sun hadn't come out yet. Ace and I were talking with each, about everything and nothing at all. It was like old times. Like before, when everything was better between us. He was stroking a finger on my back while we laughed with each other.

"I missed this, I missed you." He said lovingly.

"I missed this too. I won't let him ruin us. I won't let him ruin what we have." I said to him and he kissed my lips once more as well as my neck, making me giggle.

"Aren't you tired yet?" I said laughing.

"I can never be tired of you." He said and I laughed. We kissed once more and I was happy that finally, things seemed better.

When the sun finally came up, I waited for Isabelle to come to the room. I wanted to apologize to her for what I did yesterday and every other day that I made her feel bad or uncomfortable. It must have been hard being around me at the time. I heard a knock and I knew that it was her.

"Come Inside." I said and Isabelle stepped in along with Neveah. I haven't seen her since I've come back. I felt a smile make its way to my face.

"Neveah." I said and I hugged her. 

"You're here." I said smiling

"Of course, I am." She said. Isabelle watched as the two of us talked, she didn't say anything.

"Neveah, can we talk later. I'll come find you. I promise." I said to her. She saw how I looked towards Isabelle and she nodded.

"I'll see you later then." She said and she stepped out.

"I came to see if you needed anything and then I'll be on my way." She said.

"Isa, don't sound like that." I said.

"You haven't called me that in a while. You haven't even talked to me or smiled at me." She said.

"I know Isa." I said 

"I'm not finished yet." She said tenderly.

"I know it's not your fault Freya. I know that you've been through so much and I only wanted to be here for you, but after yesterday I got so fed up." She said.

"I'm sorry Isabelle." I said 

"I'm so sorry for how I made you feel." I said.

"I know I haven't been myself and I hope you can forgive me for yesterday." I said. Isabelle sat down beside me and she held my hand.

"I forgive you Freya. Pls remember that I am always here for you." She said and I hugged her tightly.

"So what do you think of Neveah." I said.

"She's very nice. I like her. I'm happy you had a friend over there." She said to me.

"Yes, but I missed you so much." I said to her.

"Well, we are together again." She said to me and we both smiled at each other.

Isabelle and I went to see Jacob. We had just finished talking to Neveah. I thanked her for everything that she had done for me. If not for her bravery I might have still been stuck with Kye. I saw Jacob with Devon probably talking his ear off about all his inventions. He looked up and he saw me.

"How are you Jacob." I said to him. He smiled at me and to my surprise he gave me a hug. I hugged him back as well.

"I am happy that you are safe." He said.

"It is because I have people as kind as you and Neveah by my side." I said to him.

"Consider this place your home." I said. He smiled at me.

"I was just telling Devon about my latest invention." He said.

"Well by all means continue. I just wanted to see you. I'm happy you're here." I said and then I left them.

RALIA POV

I looked outside the window and I saw Freya and Ace hugging each other. I was happy that they were finally speaking with one another and things seemed better now. My door opened and I turned around to see who it was. I saw Darren poking his head inside. 

We had agreed to see each other today. We haven't talked in a while or let me say we haven't talked since our almost kiss.

"I almost thought you weren't going to show up." I said 

"Well I would never leave you hanging. You should know that I'm a man of my word by now." He said. He came closer to me and tilted my head up.

"Now I believe we have some unfinished business." He said and brought his face closer to mine.

"Wait, can we talk first." I said to him and he sat down.

"I really like you Darrren and if we're going to have anything between us. I want to be reassured that you like me too. I don't want to play around. I just want you to know that I want to be serious." He smiled.

"I want that too." He said.

"Okay, we can kiss now." I said and he laughed. We both kissed and it was everything I hoped it would be.