LOCKWOOD : EPISODE 4

 

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KHALIL POV ❤️

I regret it, I regret everything I said to Claire the night she died, I regret not going back to her and telling her that we could make things work, even if she thought breaking up was the best idea. But you know what I regret the most? I regret the last words I ever said to her. I could still remember that night like it was yesterday.

TWO WEEKS AGO

I walked around Max Cornwells house looking for Claire, where on earth could she be? I've barely seen her tonight and it was valentines day, we always spend valentines day together, it was no secret that my relationship with Claire was failing, for reasons I still know nothing about to be honest, it was like Claire changed overnight, she no longer wanted to do date nights and she would find every excuse on earth not to spend time together. I often wondered if she fell out of love for me, was she not happy anymore?

While I was still wallowing in my thoughts, I saw her at the balcony, she looked liked she was thinking deeply about something, I sneaked up on her and hugged her from behind, kissing her cheek.

"Hey babe, I've been looking for you." I said smiling like an idiot. Because truly, I was an idiot for Claire, she pulled away from me like my touch repulsed her.

"I'm not in the mood Khalil." She said frowning a bit.

"You're never in the mood these past few months Claire." I retorted back.

"Khalil I want to talk to you about something, I was about to look for you before you came over here." The look on her face made me scared, I didn't like it at all.

"What is it about?" I asked

"Khalil, I...I can't do this anymore" she said looking at me with tears in her eyes." I don't want to hurt you, you've been so good to me, it's not you, it's me and anyone would be lucky to have you but that person isn't me". I was still trying to assimilate what she was saying, I didn't know when I did it but I laughed a bit.

"This is some joke right, you're playing with me." But when I saw how she looked I knew she was serious, I moved away from her when she tried to reach out to me.

"Is it someone else? do you love someone else?" I said looking at her, she looked down crying.

"I'm sorry Khalil, I'm sorry". She was full on sobbing now, but I didn't care, I just didn't. Claire had hurt me and that's all I cared about, she threw away all we had in just one night.

"Who is it? at least I have the right to know." I said to her.

"I can't tell you that" she said moving away from me. I smiled a bitter smile and the next words that left my mouth hurt me more than it hurt her.

"I hope both of you rot in hell, I hate you Claire, I fucking hate you." I didn't wait to see her reaction, I just left. Not knowing that it would be the last time I would see her, the last time I would see the girl I loved.

PRESENT

As I was still in my thoughts, I felt a pair of eyes watching me, I rose my head to see a girl with hazel eyes gawking at me, she quickly looked away though, I had never seen her before but I knew I would remember a face like that if I ever saw it, she was really pretty and her hair was quite unruly, I bet that annoyed her a bit. Does she go to our school? Is she some distant friend of Claire that I didn't know about? 

All these questions ran through my mind as I looked at her. By the way she hugged Aunt Jane I could tell that they both knew each other, I decided to remove my mind from the strange girl when everyone started taking their seats. Megan took the stage to talk about Claire and how she was as person. 

Honestly, I didn't get why they asked Megan of all people to say a few words, it was no secret that they both hated each other. And Megan? She was one hard core flirt, she wouldn't stop chasing me desperately when Claire was alive and I'm sure she won't stop now that Claire is dead, the girl honestly has no shame to be honest. Megan had gone half way into her speech and I wasn't even listening but when I heard a voice my interest was at its peak.

"Excuse me." The strange hazel eyed girl from earlier spoke up. When she started talking I realized that she knew a lot of things about Claire. Things that Claire would only tell the people that she was close to. Something was fishy, how can she know this much about my girlfriend, Claire never told me about her at all and Claire always tells me everything, well she used to tell me everything until she started behaving strangely.

Suddenly, the strange girl ran away, tears rolling down her face like a river. I had to know who she was, I had to find out how she knew so much. It was 7pm when the wake ended, I walked up to Aunt Jane our eyes connected and she gave me a broad smile.

"Khalil, are you leaving? She said in that calm voice I always loved listening to.

"Yes Aunt, take care of yourself alright, I know its difficult, believe me, I still can't believe it myself but we have to be strong" I paused before saying. "We have to be strong for her and to be able to find out the bastard who did this". I said with clear anger on my face, Aunt Jane gave me a hug, letting out all the tears she couldn't let out when there was a flurry of people here.

"Thank you, my dear" she said smiling, I smiled back at her but a thought disturbed me, I needed to ask Aunt Jane about the strange girl, now was the best opportunity.

"Aunt Jane?" I asked, she looked at me, already alert to hear what I would say.

"The girl that hugged you, the one with curly hair and Hazle eyes?" I asked. Aunt Jane's eyes lit up with remembrance.

"Oh, Noa?" She said. So that was her name.

"Yes, how does she know Claire?" I asked.

"Well, Noa told me they met at summer camp and that they talked a few times at school because they're classmates, but I'm beginning to doubt, you don't just know that much about a person you talked to just a few times, and the pain in her eyes like she lost something so dear to her, it was as if she had known Claire for a long time." She paused before she said,

"But let's not wallow on that, you should get home, it's already late and your mother might get worried".  "About that Aunt Jane. Mum said she's sorry she couldn't make it, the supermarket needed her on duty, one of the cashiers got sick, but she said she would call you". I said.

"It's alright dear, take care of yourself." Aunt Jane said to me before walking away to greet others, as I was about to go, I saw Megan look at me, then she started coming my way. I walked as fast as I could but she got to me anyway, before she could talk I stopped her.

"Megan, not now please." I said frustrated and walked away. She looked unhappy and a little bit hurt but I couldn't find it in me to care, I needed to clear my head after today, a lot of things happened in a space of a few hours. I would think about the mystery girl later, right now there was only one place I wanted to be. 

A place that would fill me with memories of my beautiful Claire.

To be continued.